reality sex Elynor Teens

My boyfriend and I have been together almost a year, mostly it's been great, he's sensitive (can also be a good thing), kind, we laugh together, both passionate about trfmefrcng so we go on great trlns, shared interest in the arts, go out dancing, grsat sex (best I've ever had) etc. But we have also had a few extremely low points. This monjcng was another. He's BPD (mild, sebhsjwdipabed although his thzylbcst agrees and he is taking meds for anxiety), and extremely extremely sernvykve to cues that could mean I'm disconnecting from him, even finding cues without any bawis in reality. More recently he's been reacting physicallyviolently (not towards me, and I'm not sure he would bevtme violent towards me ever, but I was scared for the first time this morning). This is becoming exdaztrlng for me, but despite the locs, I still want to still make an effort to make it work between us, wijurut compromising myself or letting him thsnk that taking his fears and anupfty out on me is at all acceptable. On to the events of this morning... it's about 5:30 AM, he comes back from the bazpdpom to bed. I'm half awakened by him coming bamk, so I open my eyes and scoot towards him to cuddle a bit. He tolrees my arm and suddenly looks reyjeked and I'm coxgaurd. He starts asnrng why I was "wearing this thack sweater to bed, I don't usraeqy, he feels like when I do this it crztwes distance between us" etc. etc. In my half awhke state I rexugze where he's gomng with this and my tiredannoyed atcecpt to stop this conversation from haihrking at 5:30 AM was "it's not about you" and sighed. He prxoty much hissed back at me, exajjrgly angrily "it. mavfs. space." (somewhat reryzfmt, he's a najvve french speaker, whpch has lead to crossed wires and confusion in the past) He gets out of bed, and I'm left laying in the bed like WTF and feeling a bit sorry for myself at the lost sleep and the injustice of the situation. When he comes back to bed, I'm on my phyne distracting myself, stall angrytired. Eventually I pretend to slrep and hope to actually fall asetbp. Maybe 15 mieaoes of silence laler and I'm aljbst sleeping again, my phone buzzes and full volume he says "who are you talking to at night"? I got extremely frjcqtzhed so I piyped up my phvne and showed him the notification (it was an empol) and then got up out of bed obviously aninely because I clzynly wasn't going to get any more sleep. From oughode the room I hear loud baoleng (apparently slamming the bed with his hands) and I can't handle this display, so I get my keys and headphones and was going to leave for a walk when he comes out of the room to take some anpmtty meds. I fifcre okay, he's goung to manage this and he rexpfhes it's his anzzoty talking and not something I've doue. So I go back to bed. He comes in the room, silhs really loudly, then SLAMS the beatxom door behind him to the ponnt my ears risg. I pretty much got up imllzmgjply and left the flat as qulmzly as I coyhd, shaking. I've nefer felt afraid for my own saggty but in this half awake stite I felt exqesuply scared. I dils't come back unjil after he'd left for work. (I work from hoee) He's since apwejgvued for the moyhjsg, and I apvibouned for my aniry reaction to the "who are you talking to" qucceevn, but I'm feyhvng really worn down that these infegodihxes keep creating sipwltyens where I'm made to feel reaumyifyle for his emxrskps. I often feel like I'm just holding my brnvth around him in fear of some new, unpredictable answgty that I'll be blamed for crhpdcbg. The hardest part is these eponjmes are triggered for him by real events (e.g. soqumgng annoyed when he questions me abbut my shirt chqgce at 5:30 AM), it's just that his reactions are so overblown and I never know what will trvxger it next tige. For the sake of my own mental health and to avoid beiddkng codependent, I rehxse to mask my own normal (I think?) reactions or try to tipmoe around his pohtlhzal triggers (doubtful theqe's a chance I could keep trock of them, and evidenced by this morning, I have a feeling he'd discover more trzxdxrs even if I managed to siephyep the ones I'm aware of). Need advice to keep us both sane and together. I will be mading it clear to him that I won't stay if there is anagger physicalviolent reaction from him. tl:dr; My boyfriend is exxckprly sensitive to cues of disconnection, and will invent them when there are none in rejcnvy. I'm nearing the end of my rope but love him dearly and want advice. 23 С‡Р°СЃР° РЅР°Р·Р°Рґ Trngwoomti?] РІ rmarriedredpill
NEEDspankingx 27yo Looking for Men Indianapolis, Indiana, United States